Earthquake Precog

metaphysically felt an earthquake last night (felt others in the last several weeks that came to pass, but since I didn't publicize them, I can't exactly claim prediction). My thought at the time was it will be large and possibly local, or at least US-related. But I don't want another local one, so I'm actively begging mama earth to NOT let us go through that again. As always, stay tuned...

2017 When The Sun Shall Meet The Earth

I was told in dreamtime: "In 2017 the Sun shall meet the Earth." Unfortunately I was awakened by one of my dogs digging at my shoulder before I could absorb what I was shown. After much reflection and meditation and being shown small after-glimpses, I believe I was shown glimpses of massive heat waves sparking fires and all the destruction that will follow should that happen. Time to start preparing ourselves for too much heat, y'all. And it wouldn't hurt to start converting homes over to solar power, either. As to crops, I would suggest learning how to use indoor/attached greenhouse hydroponic systems - at the very least you'll be harvesting organic veggies whether this comes to pass or not.

Explosion on the Beach

About two-three weeks ago I had a vision in which an explosion happened on a white beach. It was deliberately set and happened in the day time with many tourists around. I instantly thought Gulf of Mexico, but it could be any beach location with white sand.


UPDATE: The news today showed the prison fire in Honduras that happened today. The prison was surrounded by whitish-gray sand, the palm trees were similar to what I saw in my vision, and the townspeople were all gathered around watching (like the tourists I saw in the vision). The fire was also deliberately set.

Earthquakes (plural) and why we must be good stewards of the Earth

On Thursday, February 2, 2012, I wrote the following on my FB page: " Mama Earth has been speaking to me LOUDLY for the last two days. This may mean to expect an earthquake in the very near future, possibly a big one. I have the Girls' leashes ready by the door just in case..."

Within the next few hours a 6.9 earthquake struck Vanuatu. I stated that I kept feeling more earthquakes, and for everyone to expect them through the 7-day time period in which my visions for earthquakes usually occur.

On Saturday a 5.7 occurred off of Vancouver Island and a 4.3 in Oregon. On Sunday a 6.8 struck in the Phillipines. And it's only Monday morning - still 3 days to go. I'm not certain if the Phillipines' quake was the last one in the cluster or not, so as always, stay alert, be prepared!


UPDATE: 5.0 in Hokkaido, Japan happened today, February 7. I still think there may be at least one more....


I then stated that I thought the next quake would be in New Zealand, and it happened on February 8, a 5.3.


On Friday, the Earth spoke to me again. Today Costa Rica had a 5.8 quake.

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I read the following statement from the Ecological Internet page: "WHY CARE FOR EARTH?

Because continuing 3 billion years of natural evolution's achievements matter, because Gaia is alive and hurting, because humanity's best may be before us, because of all the miraculous life suffering and being lost through no fault of their own, because to care for what you love is to be fully alive... and the alternative is narcissistic nihilism leading to gruesome mass death for all."

We all know this, right? I've been shown what the future will be like time and again in my visions if we don't stop the genocide against our precious Earth, her plants, her minerals, her creatures, and most especially her sentient beings. If you do nothing else in your life, for pity's sake take a stand against those greedy bastards who think not of Earth but of their own selfish desires. This life ain't about who can out income whom - it's about balancing what we have, what we give back and what we can do to ensure our future generations become good stewards as well ♥ 

A Dream of Murder

Quite a while ago I used to have dreams in which I was a victim of murder. It wasn't "me" - I took the place of the victim. I would fail to get street names or locations or even the names of the victims or murderers. But I would read about the murder a few days later, and it just seemed such an injustice that I couldn't help stop the event before it happened! I stopped having the dreams eventually until this morning, when I was murdered by two female friends and a man who looked an awful lot like Kiefer Sutherland. Again, I personally wasn't the real-life victim and this wasn't about the real-life Kiefer; most visions use symbolism in order to be interpreted. For instance as represented in this vision, the real murderer may have blondish hair or funny ear lobes or has the same voice as the real-life Kiefer or maybe even lives in Los Angeles, and one of the women had red hair. The weapon used looked like a straight razor or maybe some sort of switchblade, and the women were carrying knives. I have no idea if this will help anyone, but if you know of people who match these descriptions and are already leery of them, this may be the reason why.

A Future Loss?

I had a conversation in the Otherworld with an older man last night who told me: "1640 BC is being repeated," to which I replied, "What happened in 1640 BC?" He said, "You tell ME what happened in 1640 BC." Okay. I have been researching this all day. I found Egyptian and Chinese Dynasties and Kingdoms and nothing rings remotely "true" to this age. The ancient past is NOT my forte, and although I've watched the NatGeo & History Channels like everyone else, I don't retain dates, only events. A few minutes ago I researched again, and found that a Greek/Minoan volcanic eruption happened back then, destroying an island that many believe may have been Atlantis. The meaning of the vision is not mine to make (I'm like the Pythia at the Oracle of Delphi - yep, told ya I've been researching :D) but in the next year either we have a large eruption or loss of culture or something along those lines...


UPDATE: Tonight, 12/22/11, the National Geographic channel is going to air a segment called "The Truth Behind: Atlantis." Since this is so synchronistic to my vision, I'll be watching to see what the "experts" think Atlantis and its demise was all about and how it might be relevant to what we''re facing in the coming year.


UPDATE: Here's what I found out from the program, and since I've never fully researched the whole Atlantis myth (believe it or not hahaha!), much was new to me. The program investigated three different sites that people think could be Atlantis: Bimini, Crete and the island of Thera (where the volcano eruption happened in 1640 BC). According to Plato, Atlantis had the world's greatest military, citizens of enormous wealth and the best technology - sound familiar re the USA??? Anyway, the program ended with scholars postulating that Plato took a grain of truth about a great civilization and then fictionalized the rest as a morality tale. The "Greatest Nation on Earth" (again, familiar???) was destroyed because of their greed by the volcanic eruption. While I don't think we'll be destroyed, I do believe my vision was a precog of a volcanic eruption that will cause loss of lives and devastation sometime in the near future. Let's just hope and pray it is NOT Yellowstone! I may be completely wrong on what the vision meant in any event since I SUCK at interpretation. Maybe it does, after all, have to do with what happened in Egypt when everyone was miserable under the new regime - just as we are now with our newly elected Congress. I like this last scenario the best - it means there's hope because they can all get voted OUT ♥

Odd Experiences from 6-1-06 thru 11-17-06

The below is taken directly from a diary I kept in 2006; at the time I was a member of a yahoo group who encouraged me to write all my experiences down and my impressions of same. I thought some of y'all might find it interesting. Back then we were living in an old stone house in Bluemont, VA - a home made out of fieldstone of granite and quartz, both excellent energy conductors, and energy is certainly what I kept experiencing! The dates are listed, as well as the Sidereal Time, which is Star time - I wanted to see if there was a pattern as to when the events occurred. Apparently the events occurred at all hours of the day :D.



DATE SIDEREAL TIME EVENT
6-1-06 2:36:05 Tried sending e-mail to Jeff re AAEVP Conference in Atlanta; e-mail wouldn’t go through.  Had to send on 6-2-06


6-04-06 I was meditating, dreaming of twirling a multi-colored rod, which then made me think of a circus, which THEN made me think of a bear riding a unicycle.  Later, Jeff touched me to tell me a bear was in our backyard, and I grabbed the camera.  I took two pictures of the bear – each time it was coming right to me (not Jeff) as if I was what it was there for, but was repelled by the flash.


6-6-06 14:21
15:38
18:06  “Someone” rubbed my left finger, then left arm (like a massage rub)


Severe headache, and my left knee & right hand fingers are being touched by an unknown presence


All background noise in the house has ceased with a high pitched squeal/scream replacing it for 12 minutes.  I just noticed the hum is back


Went to the movie store – cost of movies: $6.66.  Then went to get a prescription filled, and my waiting in line number was:  66.


6-8-06 17:35 Mouse acting up as if someone else’s hand is controlling it.  As soon as I say aloud, “Okay – enough!” it acts normally again.*


6-11-06 16:44 I hear faint conversation, as if in a bubble or underwater (muffled)


6-16-06 03:00 I was walking Maggie, and we both heard a rhythmic clacking sound coming from the back area.  I looked in the trees and all over the grounds but nobody was there (and it was RHYTHMIC, so it was NOT a woodpecker or groundhog or squirrel and didn’t sound like them in any event).  Intermingled are squeals, similar to brake squeals (mechanical), so I also went to the back of the property, looked at Rt 7, no cars stalled or parked.  A certain tree’s leaves were also “waving” frantically during this time.


6-19-06 15:00
15:06
19:02 After feeling uneasy for the last hour or so, I heard footsteps upstairs.  I just came downstairs (about 10 min. ago) and KNOW none of the animals is up there (Jeff’s out of town)


I felt a presence right next to me – the EMF meter jumped to .09 (from base reading of .01), then fluctuated (went down to .07, then zoomed up to .29).  It’s at .10 right now.  It’s normally at .06 where I sit at the computer and .14 on top of the desk (it’s at .29 on the desk).  Will recheck.  Computer is on “the fritz” – freezing erratically (NOT normal)


EMF at .10 – can still feel the presence


6-21-06 Earlier in the week I noticed some plants growing in our last remaining fallow flower bed.  I thought they were thistle and thought it odd that thistle would grow (no other thistle on the property).  Today I noticed it was not thistle but is yarrow.  What’s strange about this is that this spring I started saying I wished I had some yarrow to dry to use in skin potions and/or boil for tea.  Yarrow is not on our property anywhere else, either.  Like the bear, I was dreaming about it, and it became a reality.


6-22-06 17:25 I was just re-reading what I'd written to ID about shadow people, and I sat back, didn't touch the desk, and my mouse pointer started pointing to each tool on my e-mail toolbar, lit up (as if being touched), then stopped.  EMF is 2.1.  Gertie’s barking, too, and has been on and off for the last few hours.


6-22-06 15:34 Gertie’s barking at unseen things, and I feel a presence in the house.


6-23-06 15:11 Gertie’s barking again, and I feel a presence – cool breeze on my arm.  EMF is .11


6-24-06 1:30 local
15:44
16:32 Jeff’s out of town and took the cell phone charger with him.  I have a charger for the car and while running errands, plugged my cell into the charger and noticed the display said “Airplane Mode.”  WHAT????  Of course, Airplane Mode means that I can’t receive or make calls from my cell phone.  I had to go through about 5 or 6 steps in order to disable this (I do not fly, ever!), and I know there isn’t a shortcut key to enable it.


I had turned off the computer at 1:30 before I went to run errands and didn’t turn it back on until 6:00 tonight.  When I tried to connect to AOL, I kept getting a message stating “Modem Blocked from Connecting.”  WHAT????  I’ve never received this type of error message before.  I made sure the phone was working (it wasn’t, but after plugging and unplugging many times, it finally was working again).  I turned the computer off then back on, still got the message and tried two more times.  Finally, after checking to ensure the modem was indeed plugged in correctly, I ran a diagnostic which said the modem was working correctly.  I then went to AOL connection diagnostics, and my modem had been wiped out.  I reset it, made sure it was on COM 3, and tried to connect again.  Failure again.  I went back into AOL diagnostics, and discovered that it was reading COM 1.  After clicking, rechecking, clicking and rechecking ONE MORE TIME (lol), I logged into AOL, and this time it worked.  Two (three!) different communication systems, and all were set NOT to work.   This is the most disturbing event, I think, that’s happened to date.


Maggie’s barking hysterically – no one or creature around the house that I can see.


I’m really, really nauseous, although I ate 5 hours ago – I can also feel a presence sitting in the room with us (the girls and I)


6-25-06 15:49
5:50 local   Jeff’s plane from San Diego to Dulles finally took off; it was supposed to depart at 4:00 EST but didn’t leave until 7:43 due to “Service Conditions.”  Although the weather here is rainy, the storms are rapidly moving out and have been for some time, so I know it’s not the weather.


An approximately 4-5 ft. long black snake appeared on our front porch.  I tried to take its picture, but every picture turned out fuzzy and clouded over.  The screen is dirty, but after the snake left, I took first a picture of Gertie next to me on the couch (very clear), then two more pictures of the front porch, which were also clear (the dirt is evident but the porch is clearly visible).  In the five years that we’ve lived here, I’ve only seen two other snakes, and both were green and in the yard – not near the house.


6-27-06 03:14 I had just unplugged the phone line in preparation for plugging in the modem.  I touched the mouse to begin logging into AOL, and it was already dialing!  I hadn’t even touched the desk up to that point.  Mouse is out of control – I have to keep saying, “Let me have control back.”  It works.


7-01-06 8:00 local I had an alert that I had a phone message, and saw on my Recent Call list that a friend had called.  I called the voice mail and instead of saying I had one new message, it said, “You have two new messages.”  The first was indeed my friend, but the next message said in an unfamiliar female voice, “Call me!  You need to call me!  I’m telling you to call!”  My phone showed no record of anyone other than my friend calling, and this was NOT my friend.


7-05-06 15:39
16:05
19:20 Both dogs are barking like crazy – I have goose bumps all over my arms from the feeling of being “watched.”  Maggie’s cowering under my feet, and Gertie’s jumping from room to room trying to find out “who” is here.


The computer is fading in and out – as if I had been ALT-TABbing between screens and is running very slowly with jumping cursor (just like the old DOS computers used to run).  Cold breeze at my feet under the desk – EMF is .32


Something knocked loudly on the back door; the girls went nuts and Jeff’s still sound asleep.  I went upstairs to look out the window, and it was pitch black outside.  After I came back downstairs and sat back at the computer desk, the light on the side table turned from low to high (three-way bulb). 


7-06-06 17:10 I was playing an on-line game with my cursor in the middle of the screen, hands not touching the keyboard, when the START menu popped up.  No reason for this.


7-24-06 10:15 I was meditating and first dreamed of a mountain, then the Navajo words, “Key-lench, na-shi-co-nala”.  I found the U.S. military site of Navajo language, the interpretation is: “KLESH NAH-JIH-CO-NAL-YA” or snake remove.  Remove the snake?  I also saw the mountain in my vision – it’s Navajo Mountain in Utah.  I’m going to send an e-mail to the Navajo asking for another interpretation.


8-13-06 4:12:08 a.m. local I received a reply from a Navajo today, but the sender did not identify his/her self (the e-mail address is me4dine2004@yahoo.com).  Here it is:
Hey Kerry,

I was reading my cousin's website, as I do often, just to see if there are connections in our universe and was astounded to read of your dream as it relates to my belief that there is something not in balance with our Navajo Nation.  Your dream and your research only makes me believe even more of what my own thinking has been of late.  I also wanted to tell you that I am of Irish descent as well and I can't help that with these "connections or coincidences" just give me the validation of my belief in the universe.  

It so happens that my maternal grandmother was a true sister to Harrison Lapahie's father, Willie, and she married my grandfather, Lee Arthur Bradley, who is the one that was 1/2 Irish.  Anyway, I'd often thought of trying to trace back to see where his father Arthur Bradley came from but it's like looking for a pebble in a big pond much less an ocean so I doubt this will ever happen but back to the dream.

Our tribe of 300,000 seems to be losing it's culture and language to the outside world, especially our children and it's sad but more so when our own government is seduced by the whims and antics of politics and it so happens that our nation's administrative office was situated by the Bureau of Indian Affairs (federal government) in it's current site right under the famous Window Rock. Which, interestingly enough, even our current president espouses the story that the Window Rock is the opening of a great snake pit where a giant snake was housed in older days.  I've heard this a lot as we've been experiencing hard times within our government and my thoughts have been, "duh, if that's the case, then why are we still sitting under that darn rock" seeing as it was the whitemen (no offense) that chose the site.

Hence, my thinking is that your dream is telling us that we need to get that office out of where the administration office is located and maybe things will come back in balance for us.  Plus it'll only be a woman that does it and right now we have a woman running for the president's office and I'm hoping that she wins.  I am thinking that this is a sign of great changes to come for our people and must thank you for sharing your dream.  People will probably think I'm weird but hey...at least you felt it enough to send to us so...

Thank you.

8-13-06 n/a For the last two months I’ve been smelling a vanilla-minty smell.  At first I thought it was one of the girls’ rubber toys, then I thought it was my cigarettes (which I quit smoking a couple of weeks ago), then I thought maybe I was experiencing clairgustance. 


8-19-06 9:34 am local At about 5:00 pm local I noticed that I had a voicemail message on my phone.  I first went to my recent call list to see who had called, and there was no entry.  I then went to my messages, opened the one waiting for me, and it was in either complete gibberish or an unknown/unearthly language.  It was an older male voice speaking with urgency, interrupted occasionally by a female.  Both Jeff and I were awake by 9:34, and the phone did NOT ring.


8-25-06 10:00 am local It just occurred to me that the language on the 8/19 phone call could be Native American.  I still have the message on my phone, so I’m going to let Jeff listen to it when he gets home from work tonight.  He thought the language might be Southeast Asian.


8-29-06 For the second morning in a row, I’ve had a dream entirely in French.  Heavy sigh.  I don’t know why I’m dreaming in languages J.  I was shown a holocaust, with planes crashing, buildings on fire and people fleeing through the streets.  The only word I remember is “guerre” or “war.”


9-03-06 2:00 p.m. local I was on the computer and suddenly smelled a cigarette, as if someone was right next to me smoking.  I asked if it was my mother (who smoked), but I got no reply.


9-9-06 1:00 a.m. Jeff’s mother died in Seattle, which would have been 10:00 pm PDT.  I have no remembrance of her dying, but Jeff said she came to him.


9-11-06 08:20 Some entity tried to get into the house through the front door.  It was the strangest thing – I saw movement outside on the porch, then saw an entity (light was displaced, but it was NOT a shadow person) trying to open the storm door.  Just as I freaked out, the girls came slowly into the front room from the back, and we all went back into the back room.  After a while, we all came back up front, and the entity was gone.  When Jeff came home, I told him about the visitation, and he said it was his mother, that he had given his mother permission to visit us whenever she wanted.


9-17-06 13:46/
3:20 pm local Something just interfered with the satellite in the front room.  The backroom satellite is fine; the front room went on the blitz – flipping through channels before the picture shook violently (like an earthquake), then a message came on saying “acquiring satellite signal” – it’s now back on and on the exact channel I had it on before it went nutso on me.  It’s a beautiful day with no clouds and nothing in the sky to obscure the satellite dish – plus, the back room television is not having satellite difficulties.


9-19-06 6:30 pm local I was outside without the girls, just sitting near the side yard waiting for the deer to come into view, when a streak of light, rectangular (or rather prismatic) in shape, shot out from the maple tree near the house.  It was still day light, and yet I saw this brilliant object quite clearly – it was NOT a moth, bird, butterfly, etc. – it was an OBJECT.


9-19-06 11.40 pm local I was looking out the upstairs window at the sky/stars just before getting into bed when I noticed a shooting star coming from the area of the oak tree in the side yard shooting upward – in essence in a WN direction.  It moved too quickly for me to discern whether it was a meteor or actually coming from the oak tree.


9-24-06 8:31 local Modem problem again (see 6-24-06).  This time the modem defaulted to COM 2, instead of COM 3.  I reset the modem, it reverted back to COM 2, and I put it BACK to COM 3.  Sheesh!  Still not working.  (Jeff said it worked fine the next morning – 9-25 – and it’s been working ever since)


10-8-06 10:00 local
11:32 local
12:30 am local I heard two distinct tones, then my ears went to a different frequency for about a minute.  About an hour later, I received an e-mail stating that North Korea had launched its first nuclear test.  I’m wondering if the tones were a type of alert system, much like the warning siren before a tornado?


Someone just blew in my ear and made a humming sound – I felt the breath on my ear and heard the sound.  Creepy!


I heard the two tones again.  What does this mean????


10-19-06 1:50 pm local I heard the two tones as I was meditating.  The girls heard the tones too and started barking.


10-21-06 2:59 am local I couldn’t fall asleep, especially since the television was on – it was so loud!  I thought Jeff had fallen asleep on the couch, but I heard him snoring in the bedroom, and meanwhile the tv was still so loud!  I went downstairs to turn the tv off, and when I reached the middle stair, the noise ceased.  As I reached the last step and turned toward the tv, I saw that it was off.  Huh???  


11-17-06 8:00-9:15 am local
12:25 I had to leave the house by 9:15 in order to get to the spa in time to give a facial.  Starting at 8:00 (when I logged onto AOL), I noticed the computer clock was 20 minutes fast.  I kept checking my watch and the other clocks in the house to ensure that I wasn’t going to be late leaving, and made a mental note to change the computer clock when I got home.


I’m home now, and the computer clock is perfectly accurate.  Go figure :D

Earthquake and Explosion visions

On Saturday, October 29 I posted the following to Facebook at 11:32 a.m.: "felt yet another quake last night then went to bed and was awakened at 4:30 by a heavy explosion (metaphysically) that shook the bed. The Girls - all of whom sleep in bed with me - didn't even blink. Another series of tremors, ending with someone shouting, "Kerry!" Clueless what it means - Iasked several times! - but as with all the others, we'll find out when we're meant to know. I think whoever shouted my name was just trying to hit the point home.... And yes, just as with all the other times I begged to know GPS coordinates - all to no avail (sorry y'all)" The earthquake is yet to be but an explosion happened in Kansas Saturday night that killed 6 people.

UPDATE: as I stated above, on October 31 the explosion happened in Kansas, and today, November 5, a 5.6 quake hit Oklahoma. It seems as if my visions are almost (almost, though not always) one week prior to the actual event, and this is true to that.

On October 26 at 8:16 p.m. I posted: "Earthquakes (plural). Just felt 'em - don't know where except I flashed on California but don't we ALL flash on California when we think of a quake???? And yes, last week I DID feel the earthquake in Turkey but quite honestly the visions are changing from shaking to tremors and I'm not sure if I'm getting Parkinson's or not :D. Stay tuned..." At 2:37 a.m. on October 27 a 5.2 quake struck near Sacramento CA.

In early October (I can't find my Wall post re this particular vision) I posted that I had another quake vision and the words "fog" and "Yogi Bear" were shown to me. On October 13 a 5.9 quake struck off the coast of Oregon. At around the same period a quake hit Colorado. The fog of course meant Oregon, but "Yogi Bear" to me meant Yellowstone. Colorado is close enough :D.

NOTE: I just put "Search this Blog" at the top of the left-hand column so that from now on if anyone is interested in reading past/current earthquake postings, they can just type in "earthquake" in the search field!

Environmental Holocaust

Saturday evening I couldn't get to sleep; I had one vision piled on top of another - all pertaining to the world in which we live. My feet and hands were sweating, and my toes were curling under, going into spasms, because I couldn't bear to witness what I was being shown. It was hell, literally and figuratively.

I'll begin by saying that there are many people who think that there is a conspiracy by the powers to be to depopulate the Earth. They cite example after example of atrocious practices by big businesses with polluting and pillaging Earth's resources, including people, without a thought or conscience as to how those resources are acquired - well, without thought as to how resources are acquired as long as it's profitable. I've said time and again that it's not a case of genocide but rather greed; after all, how can a corporation make money if there are no buyers for its products? It always comes back to mega-profits, and how greedy the company and its shareholders (or partners) can be.

So Saturday evening's dreamtime was all about that greed. But I was shown and told what is REALLY happening in addition to the bottom line of money, and it may be, to some of us, worse than a scenario of genocide would be.

The companies are deregulating the EPA and risking lawsuits over sloppy/unsafe business practices because they're performing a type of ongoing experimentation: how much pollution and/or poisoning can the human body and the environment withstand before there are massive deaths? How much poison can be emitted into the water/air/ground and have life be sustainable? Which types of species - animal, plant, mineral - will be caused irreparable harm, and which types of species will continue to limp by? And if a species dies, how will that impact the whole? How will that impact human life? And finally, how will that impact future profits?

Instead of retrofitting a business to ensure safety and environmental compliance, these big businesses are willing to spend billions of dollars to see how far they can take their greed. If cancer clusters form in the human population, they don't want to know why the clusters are forming - they already know - but instead want to know how many are acceptable before that business must be shackled and moved to another location. How is the ecosystem in that location handling the poison? Can plants regrow on toxic soil, and if so, what specifically can grow?

Ever wonder why many companies have stellar labs and scientists working for them who specialize in health, safety and environment when the companies are so obviously out of compliance? This may be one of the reasons why: they're studying not the worst case scenario but rather ongoing effects of modern day poisoning and what it means to sustainability. Definitely not sustainability as we organic activists understand it, but sustainability as to how much before the entire ecosystem dies. I was shown the labs, I was shown the scientists, I was shown the results. I wept and kept weeping even after the vision ended.

This is not only unacceptable to me but a crime against nature, humanity and Mother Earth herself! The Wall Street/We Are the 99% protests are still in full gear. If you do nothing else in your life, I am begging you to support these protests. I am begging everyone who reads this blog to tell his or her State and Federal representatives that the EPA cannot be deregulated and instead must have stronger regulations. To allow any entity the power of choosing greed over life is NOT capitalism or democracy or fair and just; it is abhorrent, vile and an abomination against life for Earth. Please don't let my visions be in vain!!! I never, ever want to say, "I told you so."

Past lives and living in the present

This morning on The Monroe Institute's website I read an article that "renowned British psychologist Roger Woolger, Ph.D" has been researching past lives and the present life phobias attached to same: http://www.monroeinstitute.org/thehub/are-past-lives-real-could-they-be-important-for-our-health-and-well-being-today/. So it got me thinking about two of my phobias: heights and drowning.

I've been swimming since before I can remember. My mother was a beach babe, and I was born and spent the first 6 years of my life in Coronado, California. My earliest memory of swimming was in the Hotel Del pool, diving off the board and hearing someone remark, "Oh my god! That toddler is diving! How old is she? Only two?" I can remember my stepfather telling me after he took me to the deepest part of the pool to hold my breath, he was going to take me to the bottom of the pool, and when he released me, for me to just float to the top. He told me that we always float back up as long as we don't panic. So we went to the bottom of the pool, he released me, I floated to the top, and I learned my first water safety lesson.

We moved to Jackson, MS when I was six, and we had a backyard pool in which we swam constantly. Then when I was seven we moved to Montgomery, AL, and built a backyard pool two years after that. In Montgomery we all took advanced swimming and diving lessons at the YMCA, and all four of us children attended summer camp every year for the next seven years. At the Y, the only dive I never performed was one off the high dive - I was terrified of heights with no reasonable explanation. My siblings weren't afraid, my parents weren't afraid, my friends dived with impunity off the high dive. I couldn't do it.

We went to Lake Jordan and Panama City Beach every summer too, often for a week or so every time. I was water skiing by the time I was in third grade and snorkeling in the Gulf of Mexico at that age. At Auburn when I took the required swimming class for credit, the instructors chose me to be the demonstrator of the various strokes and treading water. I could tread water for hours - it's as natural to me as breathing.

But I'm terrified of the water, specifically being stranded in the ocean or the boat flipping over in the lake. I've been on several deep sea fishing expeditions and all that water skiing required that I ride in the boat, but the unreasonable fear of drowning was constant until my anxiety level amped up to where it is now as an older adult: it gives me the willies to have to even ride on a ferry. When my mother died, we had her cremated and spread her ashes in the Gulf, which meant riding about two miles out into the sea. Luckily it was a beautiful day, beautiful ceremony - we each took a handful of her ashes and threw them into the wind, then threw in red roses afterwards - and my thoughts were firmly centered on the loss of my mama; and yet there was that nagging feeling in the back of mind of somehow drowning because we were so far from shore.

When Jeff and I lived in Seattle, he wanted to take the ferry to Victoria BC, and I refused. I desperately wanted to go to Victoria, but the rough waves, foul weather and certainty of drowning kept me from going. Jeff and I spent several days in Burlington VT a few years ago, and we had to cross Lake Champlain in the ferry so that we could go home by a scenic route. I stayed in the car the entire time while Jeff walked all over the ferry and took pictures. Of course it didn't help that I just knew the sea monster was going to rear his awesome head and crush me if I fell into the Lake!

As an adult I've often wondered why I suffer from these two phobias. I've had several nightmares in which I'm pushed off a cliff and drown in the sea below. I don't know if I'm reliving a past life experience or not, but since my visions always have some basis of reality in them, I would think that's probably the most plausible explanation. For the last ten years I've suffered from crippling vertigo in addition to the fear of heights; it's now so prevalent that I can no longer ride escalators (I feel as if I'm going to tumble backward, and getting on and off of them presents its own problem with dizziness and loss of balance). 

So once again I'm earth-bound. Solidly earthbound. Circle of life, y'all